Thursday, March 20, 2008

Now Entering Town of Heartache, Population: 2

For the second year in a row, Easter, that Judeo-Christian celebration of Christ's resurrection will be the season of miscarriage and D&C for me.

Our little phoenix is gone. There was lots of growth, but Dr. Uterus could find no heartbeat. We knew that this was a distinct possibility, but it is still so hard.

There's not much else to say.

image: Hanadi Traifeh

24 comments:

JJ said...

Mrs. X, I am so very sorry...your little one was a true fighter, and every sense of the word Phoenix.

Thinking of you...

Melanie said...

I recognize the utter inadequacy of words at a time like this, so please just know you both are in my heart. I've been pulling for you so much in the last several weeks and I'm pulling for you now.

Pepper said...

I'm so sad to read this post. I was hoping your Phoenix would beat all the odds. I know you were too.

Wishing you peace and healing.

Rachel said...

I'm so sorry to hear your news.

Paranoid said...

Damn. I am so sorry.

Lori said...

If I feel like I've been punched in the gut reading your news, I can only imagine how you are feeling.

I am so sorry, Mrs X, for the loss of Feen X.

Hit that damn bottle.

TABI said...

I am beyond sorry, there are no words.

shinejil said...

Shit. I am so sorry. I'm sending all my love your way.

Your virtual merlot awaits, m'lady.

tobacco brunette said...

I'm so, so sorry for you and Mr. X. Please take care.

JellyBelly said...

i am so absolutely sorry. you're in my thoughts.

FarmWife said...

I am so very sorry.

peesticksandstones said...

Oh my God... I am so, so sorry. I've been thinking about you and your Phoenix so much. It's especially painful having the seasonal link -- I definitely understand that.

Sending lots and lots of healing thoughts your way.

Lesley said...

I am so very sorry for your loss. Hugs to you.

Emily said...

I am so sorry, Mrs. X. Wish I could send a big cyber HUG your way ... or at least my shoulder to lean on, if you need it.

kaaron said...

I am so very sorry to read this. Words really aren't enough.

Wilma said...

I can't think of anything to say to you, so just know that you & Sweetie are in my thoughts.

Elizabeth said...

I am so sorry. That seems so inadequate for the pain and sorrow you are feeling. I'll be thinking of you.

Ahuva Batya said...

I can't even begin to imgaine the pain you are feeling. You will get through this, and you will be the strongest person you know, because I can't imagine anyone else who will have lived through the despair, joy, despair rollercoaster you have been forced to endure. It's more than unfair; it's cruel. I am thinking of you.

Gumby said...

Like everyone else, I'm so sorry. I was keeping everything crossed for you and a healthy phoenix. Now I'm keeping everything crossed for a healthy recovery for you and hubby.
I have no idea what it is like to go through this once, let alone twice. It's just not fair!
I'm just so sorry, and keeping you in my thoughts... :(

Rebeccah said...

Oh no... I'm so sorry.

jp said...

I was rooting so hard for your Phoenix. I am miserable to read this.
Please know I am so very sorry...

Deathstar said...

I don't know what I can say that others haven't already said. I was so hoping for tiny miracle...

Extra strength Tylenol helped me to sleep.

MeHereNow said...

Ditto what everyone else has said - I am truly sorry for your heartache.

Wordgirl said...

Oh no.

I am coming late to this news but I am so very sorry.


(deep sigh)


Pam